Thursday, July 21, 2011

Home at Last

I drove the few hours back home a little over a week ago. To say I was nervous would be an understatement. I hadn't driven in probably two months and I wasn't ready to leave the comfort of my mom's house. I think I was overwhelmed. It feels like I'm mostly out of pain and now I should get right back to my old life- working at least 25 hours a week and going to school full time. I mean, why wouldn't I? I feel overwhelmed. So I'm trying to take things one step at a time and give myself a break.

I am enjoying being out of pain. It's been 4 years, which, at 25, might as well be a lifetime. To say that I'm completely pain free would be a lie, yet it's minimal and I can handle it. Sometimes the stimulator bugs me. I can't exactly explain why, but I just turn it off to give myself a break. I have it on for the majority of my day and I usually sleep with it on. I keep it very low, around 1-1.5. The power goes up to 10 (or so I'm told, I turned it up to 3 and it really started to hurt). I also found that keeping the pulse width low (25-40) gives me more relief than turning it higher. I have 4 different programs I can choose from (A1, A2, B1 and B2). They are all a bit different and I usually stick with the A's. The B's seem to irritate my scalp which makes it itch.

I'm trying a new scar removal patch. I bought Bio Oil and despite the label that told me it was not oily, it really was. I let it dry for an hour then put on a shirt and stained it. So I bought ScarAway silicone patches since they are supposed to work well and they were affordable ($20 for 8 weeks). I know they are not the highest rated on the market, but I couldn't afford the $50+ for the Cica Care which are supposed to be the best. I enjoy the patches since they do not get in my way at all. I put them on at night, leave it on for 12 hours and take it off. Each patch is good for one week and you get eight in a box.

I have been trying to push myself to get out of bed and do something every day. My stamina is totally shot and I get exhausted easily. I know that it's going to take a while until I'm "normal" but it's almost fun working up to that goal. Next week my boyfriend and I are taking a vacation. We'll be going to the California coast and camping. But not real camping, KOA camping with cabins and all since I'm not quite up to sleeping on the ground.


  1. That's weird, I didn't have a problem with the BioOil. I wonder if they changed it since then? I've never seen scar patches...those are so cool. Much easier than remembering to put Mederma or BioOil on.

    I find my stimulator irritating too sometimes so don't worry, you're not alone in that. I too find the lower pulse rate works better on my pain.

    I am SO glad the stimulator seems to be working and you are able to go home and move forward with your life. It's definitely hard to get back into the swing of things, but I also found it kind of exciting to be able to keep a "normal" schedule since I hadn't been able to do that in so long.

  2. I found your site through Banner and I'm really looking forward to reading about your experience! I'm glad you are feeling well enough to go camping.

  3. Thanks Banner! I am so glad I'm not alone. I was worried that getting annoyed with the stimulator was psychological.

    I'm so glad to have you reading Sue! Have you had the surgery? Or are you considering it?

    I hope you both have a great week!